SPOILERS FOR EPISODE 13 OF TOWER OF GOD
The internet spoiled the big betrayal at the conclusion of this season, but by the first episode, I was expecting it, something like it at least. And I think that was the creator’s intention too. This was mainly because they had kept Rachel’s motivations so close to their chest, so I presumed that there was something worth learning that would change my perspective of her. When Rachel pushed Bam off the edge I just wanted the next episode to come and tell me why, and thankfully it did.
People seem to really despise Rachel, but I don’t. She’s not a particularly good person, but she’s not an egregiously bad one, and I do wonder if there’s more to why she wants to see the stars so desperately. But Rachel was condemned for things completely beyond her control, and then the rabbit man and the director both manipulated her into divulging the worst parts of herself. She’s just a pawn in their game, and it’s clear that betraying Bam has destroyed her psyche.
Like the way they talked to her just because she dared to ‘step out of place’, calling her pathetic and shameless, and coaxing her into thinking the only chance she had was to kill Bam… Clearly the people running this show are super fucked up manipulative religious nutjobs. The director and the rabbit man were amused by Rachel’s act that they themselves planted as an ultimatum in her mind. They aren’t acting as though this had to happen. They just think it’s good drama. To put all the hate on Rachel is also downplaying Bam’s last words of the season. Bam himself hasn’t allowed the Tower to shape his mindset and take it’s tests for granted as valid or even right.
TOG didn’t grip me much for most of the season until this final episode where a lot of the things that were planted really started to shine. I like this dynamic playing out where we have this expected response that the show is trying to condition the viewers into expecting, despite the whole thing being horridly fucked up. I like how Rachel is an undesirable because she doesn’t possess an affinity for some strange magic god juice.
But also I love how Lero Ro has also begun to question why the tower is the way it is. I have a feeling that the rabbit man is the god king himself, but regardless, for the entire season, Bam hasn’t really done anything that required him to change until the very last moments of the season. While I would agree that Bam is a good person and if anyone should climb the tower, it should be him, but let’s not kid ourselves that Bam hasn’t had the entire carpet laid out for him from the beginning. Bam and Rachel were presented with the same test to enter, but Bam had explicit help from two people who did so on a whim. Rachel had no such help. Bam did do something brave when he entered the fish’s stomach, but he didn’t do it alone. He went in with a weapon, he went in with encouragement, because he just happened to have the right affinity for some weird god juice and the crazy zealots covet it. But we don’t think of them as crazy zealots because they seem so intelligence, so collected. They seem like that *should* be in charge because that’s how they carry themselves.
Rachel on the other hand had no help, no encouragement, no weapon. Even if she did the only thing Bam did: be brave and go in, 100% chance she would have died. Period, that’s not her being a coward, that’s her not being suicidal. And she herself made the perfectly valid claim that this was an absurd, impossible test. Why would we hate her for what she did when, from the very getgo, she was never even given the hint of opportunity? Why should Bam get to have the potential to literally have the power of gods, while she has to be happy with her place? That’s not to say that Bam’s good nature hasn’t been a key component to his later success, but let’s not pretend like that would mean something if he didn’t have strong Shinsu. Without the Shinsu, he would be as worthless to the tower as Rachel. There’s a clear disconnect the show creates between what is and isn’t his merit, and it’s clear his merit alone isn’t enough to climb the tower. We judge that Rachel didn’t “try” so she has no right to complain, Bam made it so why judge him? But that’s absurd, that is ignoring any sensible approach to the situation which Rachel did.
I think most people in Rachel’s position, the position of someone who just got dealt shit cards, would be seething with envy. Which she does in copious amounts. But even then, it’s clear Rachel cares about Bam the whole way through, but she feels so incredibly inadequate and hopeless because of the Tower’s incomprehensible standards. Why is Shinsu important? Why is it so important that if someone doesn’t have it, they have no right to want a fighting chance, that if they even humor the thought that they should be talked down to like garbage? I feel like that’s sort of the central idea behind the first season, and maybe the whole series if it continues this way.
The show consistently puts Rachel, until the final episode, in a lens of suspicion and dislike.
Liking Bam is easy, Bam is likeable, but according to everyone, Rachel should be happy being the object of his affections. Rachel should be happy staying in her place and being the nice young lady with a valiant knight. God forbid she wants to be a knight herself, that she would want to be loved and thought of as courageous, for people to think she’s valuable. She’s a “very lucky girl“. And it’s true that she made the wrong choice, she threw away the only person who saw her that way, that saw her as special; but can we really say that Bam was actually good for her? That it was enough? Bam wasn’t a person Rachel could honestly and emotionally communicate with. Bam was a puppy that held her up to an impossible pedestal that everyone else decided, based on their own prejudices and protectiveness of Bam, that she didn’t belong on. Bam is a good person, a very kind one, but sometimes kindness can really hurt, especially if someone believes they don’t really deserve it, which the Tower’s employees have done all they can to make Rachel believe that.
Bam, in his good nature, isolated Rachel because she never felt like she had room to be flawed, mixed with the distance and dislike everyone else treated her with, which resulted in self loathing and has destroyed her sense of identity.
And if we say that Rachel should be happy in her place as Bam’s object of affection, carrying her all the way up the Tower while she sits back and relaxes and fosters all the hatred of everyone around her for not ‘deserving it’, aren’t we then buying right into the fucked up, subjective standard that the Tower imposes on people?
If you need to climb a tower to the heavens and go through tests that would leave Hercules at a loss, just to see a starry sky, can you imagine what being at the bottom must feel like? The show is very lacking in worldbuilding, particularly outside the Tower, and while that did bother me at first, now I understand why. If we did we could feel more confident saying who ‘deserves’ to reach the top. The only snippets we get about life outside, comes from the people themselves and very vague surroundings. But now we have to trust that people are telling the truth about where they come from and build an understanding of what their past really means by engaging with them.
We wrongly assign that Bam ‘succeeded’ in episode 1 because we are used to the fairy tale, mythological concept that ‘because Bam is brave, Bam passed the test.’ But, that’s a trick we play on ourselves. We say that because it romanticizes a victory for the person we want to succeed. Bam was brave, to the point of stupid, and it was only because he had the tower throw him some help and literally randomly have the most potent latent god juice we’ve seen so far that he succeeded. And this is actually the case for most of this. But no test conductor says this. Bam won because he was lucky. That’s pretty much it. Maybe we can say after the first test his personality has helped him, but without essentially getting a free pass that Rachel did not get, it’s a moot point cause he never would have made it just like Rachel never would have.
We say that Bam deserves to climb because he’s a good person. Everyone else, not as much, but they deserve to climb because they can. They seem capable to fight and pass tests. And everyone else? Well, they’re a Rachel. They’re a liability.
Rachel saved Bam’s life. She is explicitly the reason he is the protagonist, and her saving him and treating him with kindness, is the entire reason Bam is the lovely person he is. Let’s not forget that.
